Is It Worth It?


The majority of my favorite moments in my life are undocumented, and while I sometimes regret not capturing those times, it's probably best that it lives in my head versus on the Internet. What’s better – telling a story in your voice, in person over coffee to your friend, or having them read and scroll thru photos on their own?

I have to admit that while I make a living off a social media app, I have found that lately, I hate using it. In fact, I get more joy from conversations in my DM’s with friends and those who follow versus posting photos/videos. It’s not that I’m tired of creating; I’m tired of trying to compete – with the app, not the people. At the end of the day, we do not own these social platforms, we have no rights, and no real say, and no control. At the end of the day, we’re forced to go with the flow, adjust ourselves, and just deal with it. Do not get me wrong, I am grateful for the fact that we now all have an opportunity in creating our own dream jobs with such platforms but man, don’t you ever wonder if we should be stressing out over these things?

Everything in life has its ups and downs, pros and cons, and it’s ultimately up to us to decide what we think is worth the fight. Please do not read this as a letter of complaint; it is simply a spillage of inner thoughts. I absolutely love what I do and am grateful for everything. But like many, I’m frustrated and want to be transparent too. Even so, we still have to be careful because we don’t want to lose our audience or partnerships. Because after all, freedom of speech really isn’t free and I learned that in 12th grade after publishing an opinions article in the school paper - about how I really felt about the leadership in our scholar program. I caused a commotion and people got mad, but I refused to retract anything despite being sat down and talked to. Those 4 years I spent as a scholar magically disappeared from my records. I was booted from the program, a week before graduation.

Since then I’ve learned what to say and publish, and what to keep off the books. Although I'm sure a handful of my friends and my ex-manager will disagree because I'm still pretty savage in my email responses. I'm trying *shrugs. Maybe before I die, I’ll write a book and really say what I want to say (hah). But for now, I’ll end this off with a question you should ask yourself before you start stressing again, “is it worth it?”